After 3 years of fantasizing and constant shifts between fear and fantasy, I finally forced myself and took a leap of faith. Last weekend I placed an order for my first set of lingerie online. As soon as I payed for it, I knew there was no turning back anymore. It's on its way over here, and now way for me to stop it.
Why is this forcing me to go trough with it? My biggest fear is getting caught when receiving packages. I live at home, so my parents have a general idea of what I'm receiving in the mail.
Does this mean I'll be coming out? Not at all, it just means I overcame a fear.
As soon as that first set was ordered, I felt relief. I felt as if I could do things now I couldn't before. So with that first order, came a second order, and a third, and so on. Right now, pieces of female clothing and a wig are on their way over here. I know I may have gone a little crazy while shopping, but it felt so liberating, and everything looked so great :D
So here I am, taking my first steps. How does it feel? Scary! But good at the same time :)
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